i've still been cleaning - or nesting - whichever you prefer.
and i know you are thinking "gee, how many pictures is she going to take of her laundry on the clothesline?"
honestly, i'm not sure.
i may not have the time or money to make our home as perfectly decorated or styled as i would like,
but i can sure CLEAN what i already have.
and that makes me feel good.
for example, these curtains.
definitely not something i would ever choose, but they have been washed, dried in the sunshine and ironed.
and you may think i might be a little obsessive, even for a pregnant lady, but i think i have reason.
i may have told our story before, but we moved into our home just three weeks before ben was born.
i never really had a chance to "nest".
and on top of our recent move to our first home in a new town, where we knew only a handful of people...
jake had started a new job.
jake still had to finish his thesis.
we had been living apart for three months.
we were just learning to live on one income.
we met our family doctor for the first time at ben's first week appointment.
ben and i did not "click" with breastfeeding.
i thought i would be a cloth diaper mama - nope.
i thought i would be a no formula mama - nope.
so even though we completely adored ben and loved being new parents -
we were exhausted, stressed out and overwhelmed with all the "new" things happening in our life.
and i am really trying to do as much as possible to feel differently this time around.
i've had to let some things go (especially after our unexpected six week shower remodel),
but i am still trying to have a clean home, a little food in the freezer and all the baby necessities on hand.
and this time - you'd better believe it consists of disposable diapers and some bottles.
the one thing i know this time around -
things never go quite like you think they will,
and it's best if you can go with the flow,
instead of coming down on yourself for all the things that aren't going like you planned.
the same morning the curtains were drying, ben was busy playing with his construction vehicles,
and i figured - perfect time to clean the back patio and the big living room window.
i have been trying to better about leaving him alone (and i was in the back yard too) for more independent play time, and trying to avoid running over at the first instant i hear "mom!".
well, all was well until i started cleaning the window.
ben decided that his snack (that he had eaten over thirty minutes ago) was not what he had wanted -
even though it is what he originally said he wanted, and he ate the entire fruit bar - no complaints.
once he started with this he would not stop and things went downhill fast!
let's just say we had almost two hours of crying, shouting, and sobbing.
it was ROUGH!
and even though i'm used to the ups and downs of a certain three year old,
this was an extra difficult morning for me.
and i think i may have to blame my friend mandy -
we had just talked on the phone the night before and were discussing parenting.
i think she jinxed me. :) just kidding mandy!
but we survived and made it through lunch and both enjoyed a nice nap.
today was much better
i also decided to click a picture of myself and baby - 36 weeks this friday!
tomorrow looks like...
story time, grocery store, pizza, popcorn and it's the great pumpkin charlie brown (ABC @ 7pm CST).